Recapcop

Disclaimer: Not visually entertaining... Hahaha


October 7, 2011: Friday
First Month ♥
Me, Rachelle, Miera, Joanna and Heidi were at the baller shop in UM while I was waiting for Bjie. Nate also stopped by (a friend of Bjie's) after, J bought Libertea then me & Bjie ate at Zark's. While we were eating, I already gave him the notebook (cliche, but it's the 100 reasons why I love you kinda-thing). His eyes were watery. I was about to cry too but I told him not to and just to dig in the lovely burger. =p~ Yup, it was my first time to do that, and hey it's still unfinished. I'm planning to transfer it in a very visually entertaining notebook. Hehe. So we went to Rob after, foodtrip... And yes! Our favorite! Guitar Herooooooooooo!!!!
I'm falling more and more in love with him everyday.
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October 8, 2011: Saturday
Lola's Birthday Celebration
We fetched Bjie at Rob, Cainta. Yup, this day was a double-purpose. For lola's birthday and for him to meet the rest of my relatives. Everything was really okay until we owned the videoke for almost 5 hours straight! Hahaha
(soon to upload photos)

October 11, 2011: Tuesday
CESI
Since this was the day before 2 of our bosses will be heading to Cagayan de Oro for PMAP, we had a dinner at Bagnet in Makati with the Contingent and Accounting department. Yes, a lot of them have said that it's way better than the Bagnet in Taft (I haven't been in Bagnet, Taft). H and I ordered the good for two Bagnet Kare-Kare. I also tasted a little bit of Criselle's... sisig HAHAHA inside joke will never be a failure when I blog (even though I dislike sisig) but their sisig is soooo delicious! It tasted food finally! (Well, compared to the rest of the sisigs I've tasted). So me, Ms. Gen and C went home already but the rest played poker in Saguijo (yes, brave little ones but hey, they bought beers so, give it up already whatever it is that you're thinking. Haha)
(soon to upload photos)

October 15, 2011: Saturday

A date with him as always ♥

We just went around the mall, (didn't watch a movie since there's nothing worth-watching) ate at Karate Kid (piece of disclaimer, their chicken teriyaki tastes like Mang Inasal's chicken). We were really craving for Tokyo Tokyo but Rob pulled it out. Yes, Rob Kardashian. That hottie PULLED IT OUT. Kidding. The good part? We had four cups of rice all at the same time! Challenge accepted :> hehe. But I think he won since he raped my chicken and he ordered bottomless iced tea. The better part? We ordered another set of food, which is the spicy squid (yumm I loved it, but the sauce tastes like the one in Yakisoba, but it was spicy so I don't effin' care if it tasted like Yakisoba, IT WAS SPICY! Love 'em) The best part? there were only two waiters. Imagine, this restaurant had unlimited iced tea and rice then there were lots of customers and they served really fast! Hats-off for them, really. Then Timezone mode again, we're back Guitar Hero! (Uhm, we needed to digest) Oh, and just hours ago, he really bought Guitar Hero for his Xbox. What is addicting. But at least, he remembers me when he's playing his... Xbox haha. Everyday is such a perfect day, especially when that day is with him. Aaaahh, I'm always gonna be in love with him. Okay, let's rap up these cheesy moments!

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Nakita ko Sa Status ni Miaks

MEL and JOEY debate:

"Yes! Matatanggap ko parin ang bf/asawa na nangaliwa dahil hindi naman pride ang pnairal ko para mahalin at tanggapin sya.. Kundi puso ko.. At mas makpangyarihan parin ang pgmamahal dahil ang pnagmulan nito ay ang pgibig para sa Diyos.."

THE TWILIGHT THEN MY NEW MOON

Everything ends for a reason.

Break-ups for instance.

I've had break-ups with two different guys already. The first relationship lasted for two years and six months while the latest one, I must say, seven months. I don't know why do I always have this kind of relationship, a very inconsistent one. Get back together - break up - get back together again - break up again. Several times already. I'm tired of it. Of course, I am part of that problem. Call me immature, call me stupid, at least I didn't lose anything, I've loved, and I never regretted any relationship, and I never will.

My friends keep on telling me to save some for myself. I never listen.

I believe in unconditional love, but last night I have realized that yes, love is really unconditional, but a relationship is really about giving and taking. Well, if the relationship is only working because of one person doing all the effort then, the person is unappreciated... It should be stopped. THAT'S THE BIG DIFFERENCE OF LOVE AND A RELATIONSHIP.

I've also learned from a philosopher, (one of my professors), that feelings are irrational, so meaning LOVE is IRRATIONAL. Rational means seeking for reason. Does love reason? Nope. He also said that "You happen to feel love when you become a better person with someone." I happened to experience that, honestly, but it is opposed. The other party is not becoming a better person because of me, that's why I had to stop it. I am not helping him.

I can't do all the giving.
He can't do all the taking.

I woke up contented, happy and hopeful. Contented because I know what I did is best for him and for me. Happy because I know that even though I broke up with him, I gave the best love that I could ever give him and I am not regretting anything. Hopeful because I know, someday, he will see someone better than me that he can learn to be contented, happy and hopeful because of that person.

You can never feel happiness when you don't feel sadness.

Obviously, you can never feel love when you don't feel pain.

AND I WANNA THANK HIM FOR HURTING ME.
BECAUSE OF THAT HURT, I LEARNED HOW TO LOVE.

A love that's irrational, but a relationship that's rational.

Everything starts with a reason.

Hope for instance.

I also wanna thank these guys for always being there for me when I had to go through all this.

GOD :)

Sten, Gel, Virge, Mel, Miera, Criselle, Lexa, Joanna, Rachelle, Tere, Aaron, Dherick, Kimmie, Eika, Rap, Chibz, Jenny, Cez, Roanna, Sam and Paula.